Day 7: Love

“Supermom wasn't a bad job description. The pay was lousy if you were talking about real money. But the payoff was priceless in so many other ways.”
― Roxanne Henke

I lately have the urge to quit my job. I regret every day working 8AM til 5PM. I have written about this a couple times, and its something I deal with a lot every day. I miss my baby, and I don't want to miss out on her child hood. I believe I walk into my job every morning with the hope that something will happen that will make me want to quit. But honestly, I love my job. The pay is great for someone like myself who doesn't have a lot of education and not many people can say they have a Monday thru Friday job working ONLY 8 til 5 and never more. I am grateful for it, but in other ways I resent this place.

I dream of opening my own bakery. Now that may not give me the solution of being home with my daughter or future children more, but its what I want to do. I want my sacrifices to be worth something more than being stuck at a desk while my child's youth is withering away in front of me. I want my own business, and to be in control of my own life and job, and to show my child(ren) that you should make your dreams come true.

Its something my boyfriend has always been interested in himself, but he likes the more savory side of baking. The calzones, the breads, the dough - he loves the other half while I enjoy the sugar coated parts more of the trade. I enjoy any part of making something, putting it in the oven and having it come out as some sort of master piece. We have been discussing this business since we were 18 years old. We know it will take some money and planning, but now that we have a house we can start saving so that maybe in 10 years or so we can make this happen for us, or even just myself.

Now I don't have any professional experience baking or cake decorating but I want to self teach myself. I have always baked very often as a child, which consisted of simple things like cupcakes or cookies. I am starting to branch out with fondant recipes and making my own frosting's. I enjoy what baking gives me, and what it gives to other people who love the things I make. Its an addicting feeling.

For now, I will have to deal with being stuck at my desk, blogging away the hours until I go home again to my child's beautiful little face. And for now, I will continue to plan my sprinkle and frosting covered dream to one day be my own boss. The reason I do what I do is out of love, and I know one day I will get to where I am supposed to be.